Robin Williams didn’t die from suicide. I only just heard the sad, sad news of Robin Williams’s death. My wife sent me a message to tell me he had died, and, when I asked her what he died from, she told me something that nobody in the news seems to be talking about.
When people die from cancer, their cause of death can be various horrible things – seizure, stroke, pneumonia – and when someone dies after battling cancer, and people ask “How did they die?”, you never hear anyone say “pulmonary embolism”, the answer is always “cancer”. A Pulmonary Embolism can be the final cause of death with some cancers, but when a friend of mine died from cancer, he died from cancer. That was it. And when I asked my wife what Robin Williams died from, she, very wisely, replied “Depression”.
The word “suicide” gives many people the impression that “it was his own decision,” or “he chose to die, whereas most people with cancer fight to live.” And, because Depression is still such a misunderstood condition, you can hardly blame people for not really understanding. Just a quick search on Twitter will show how many people have little sympathy for those who commit suicide…
But, just as a Pulmonary Embolism is a fatal symptom of cancer, suicide is a fatal symptom of Depression. Depression is an illness, not a choice of lifestyle. You can’t just “cheer up” with depression, just as you can’t choose not to have cancer. When someone commits suicide as a result of Depression, they die from Depression – an illness that kills millions each year. It is hard to know exactly how many people actually die from Depression each year because the figures and statistics only seem to show how many people die from “suicide” each year (and you don’t necessarily have to suffer Depression to commit suicide, it’s usually just implied). But considering that one person commits suicide every 14 minutes in the US alone, we clearly need to do more to battle this illness, and the stigmas that continue to surround it. Perhaps Depression might lose some its “it was his own fault” stigma, if we start focussing on the illness, rather than the symptom. Robin Williams didn’t die from suicide. He died from Depression*. It wasn’t his choice to suffer that.
Sorry I’ve been so inactive on this blog this year, lots of stuff going on. I’m taking another photography class at my university this summer though, so I should be posting those, at least!
This is how photography should be. An art form. Thoughtful. Inspiring. Not just macro shots.
I hate that I’m not creative enough to do anything like this, but I’m glad others can :) this girl went to my high school, but I didn’t know her. Her work is amazing.
holy crap I keep accidentally posting things on here from my other blog -.-
So… during the first part of Thanksgiving break, I visited the college I’ve been seriously considering: the University of Wyoming. I went with my brother and my dad. I loved my visit. I got to tour campus and meet with an engineering professor and sit in on some classes, it was awesome! I hung out with my boyfriend a lot, and had a lot of fun with him too, but I really did freaking love the campus and the town and the surrounding area, and everything.
Underneath the picture of the UW Union, I posted a picture of my original checklist that I drafted up in like 10th grade. All of that can pretty much be condensed into this: I was looking for a college that 1) had my major, 2) was about medium sized, not too large, and 3) was cheapest to attend. I’m not very picky at all, but I was also looking for a place that I would love to live. I wanted to experience something new, and be somewhere where I could grow, have fun, and just live well.
Now, I’m not running away from my problems or trying to go as far away from home as humanly possible. I’m kind of scared of being thrown into a place where I only know 4 people. I’ll make friends fast, though, hopefully. I have no experience with snow either, so that’s slightly off-putting, but I’m also excited for snow. I am going to miss a lot of stuff here. It just ended up to be that, even though I wasn’t really picky with choosing a college, I was limited on my choices (my major isn’t offered too many places). And I feel like UW is the best choice for me.
Okay, so I must address the fact that my boyfriend does go to the University of Wyoming. I was considering UW before we started dating, and I really did keep my search as unbiased as possible. I’m not the kind of person who lets people cloud my better judgment in big decisions. Honestly, for a while, I ruled out UW as a choice completely, just so I wouldn’t get crap for going to the same college as him, but it kept bugging me because it really seemed like a good school and all… long story short, after battling myself for a while, I let it back onto my list of schools I was considering. And it gradually weaseled its way to the top, beating out my top choices:
- California Polytechnic State University-SLO: UW’s cheaper, I don’t like CalPoly’s program for my major
- Drexel University: UW’s wayyy cheaper, I would graduate in 5 years at Drexel, Drexel doesn’t have many sports teams, Drexel’s in a city far away from outdoor stuff, and Drexel intimidates me
- Missouri University of Science & Technology: UW’s cheaper, and it has backup options if I completely fail at engineering (MST is just an engineering school)
- University of Texas-Austin: UW’s cheaper with scholarships, UT is too big, and UT intimidated me too for some reason
- University of Colorado-Boulder: UW’s wayyy cheaper, Boulder is a huge pot school and is probably more so now since it’s legal in Colorado
- and a few others: all for similar reasons
I really liked all of those schools for a lot of reasons, and I’ve visited a few of them, but UW just has everything I’m looking for, ya know? It has about 10,000 students in a medium sized town that’s still close to big cities. There’s great stuff to do in town, outdoors, or in the cities nearby. It’s freaking cheap. It doesn’t have huge classes, it has a lot of degrees you can pursue, and (plus!) it has an amazing study abroad program. There are a lot of churches and Christian student organizations I can look into. There are a lot of places I can go to relax and just chill, it’s so gorgeous… I mean just look at that picture! Everything’s dead and it’s still amazing!
I also posted a picture of my acceptance letter and a scholarship offer I got from them. Even though it’s not difficult to get in, I was so happy when I got these. And I just applied to their honors program yesterday. So now I’m waiting on that… just 5 extra classes that will get me more scholarship money and let me register for classes early, whoop!
I’m ready… I’m anxious as well, but I’m so ready.